Wednesday, 24 May 2017

went to see the moon

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We went to see the moon! Museum of the Moon spent a week in The Forum as part of the Norfolk and Norwich Festival. It was really cool, it's inflatable and uses actual NASA photos to recreate the surface of our beautiful, good friend.

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Nailed it

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It was a pretty chill/fast moving week. I had no energy and felt quite down on myself but I still managed to get work done. It was mostly prep stuff which I think contributed to me feeling useless because nothing was at a finished stage but there will never be a finished stage without all the work before it so it's weird that doing that stuff doesn't feel like I've done anything. I did make myself this key ring though. A good reminder that what you look like doesn't have to be what is most important about you, it isn't your job to look nice for other people. Beauty standards are toxic, be wary of it all.

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The weather finally seems to have caught up with the time of year and the strawberry plants are really going for it. I think they're too old for actually producing fruit but the flowers are nice regardless. We also have a nice moss friend on our bird table. He fell off the roof and now lives there, we can see him through the kitchen window and he has a very calming effect. His name is Moss Def.

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I had to document this little fellow, finally too small to be of any use. You were a good rubber, thank you for sorting my mistakes for so long. You couldn't do it anymore, I had one mistake too many for you to handle.
Speaking about mistakes, this weeks Drag Race is still making me agitated. Yes, she failed the lip sync, that's fine she deserved to go based on that but why was Valentina even in the bottom two!? It wasn't even like everyone was good but two people have to be chosen, Alexis was baaaaad. This season already feels off, why get rid of one of the good ones unnecessarily? smh

Monday, 15 May 2017

stickers, funeral, patches

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This past week was making stickers, traveling to a funeral, making patches. The overall theme was being tired. I'm so out of it at the minute, I'm trying to be ok with that, sometimes you're tired and cranky, that's fine and also trying to carry on doing stuff so I don't make myself feel worse by not 'achieving' anything. But it's hard.

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I've been so tired lately even though I'm getting sleep. I'm also just plain sad. My Nan died two years ago and it was heartbreaking and now that Grandad is gone too it's all the sad of losing him but also a real shove about the fact that as a unit they're both gone. They've always been there and they were always a really good thing and now it's over. And it's weird how that is what life is and it has always happened and will always happen, the one definite, and yet there is no real way to deal with it. Unless I guess being confused and sad until you feel less confused and sad is how you're meant to deal with it. It all just takes time and letting yourself feel whatever you're feeling and being ok with it I suppose.



Anyway, I'm off to post orders and look at a big inflatable moon. That's sure to make me feel a little better.

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Monday, 8 May 2017

11 years and some stickers

The first of May was our 11th anniversary (!) so we had a day off and ate junk. It feels like so much more than a week ago. It fell at a weird time, right in between my Grandad dying and the funeral which is happening this week. That's the main energy suck at the minute but everything has happened over the past week or so. It seems like we never get to deal with just one thing at a time, everything always happens at once. I'm not going to list out everything here and to be honest some people would have taken it all in their stride but we're anxious little socially broken hermits and things are tough for us to deal with. I look forward to it going back to my boring little hermit life with nothing going on except work and games and films and snacks for a while.

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But in the middle of everything we had a nice chill day off anyway ^_^  and proved how good we are at taking selfies

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Photos are weird for scale but that mixing bowl is huge, we made an obscene amount of popcorn and watched the SpongeBob film and we ate every last piece of it because we are greedy chubbers.

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I've been using up some weird sticker paper (I explain it in the video) and did nothing for two days but make stickers. Hand drawn things that are usually printed always feel so magic. I love printing things too, making anything is always awesome but making something by hand is super magic. Regardless of how 'good' the drawing is on each one I could pile them up and lay them out and just touch them one by one and look at them for ages, they just make me feel good. Is this how people feel when they play with crystals and stuff? Making my own little talismans.

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Will's easter cactus has opened all it's flowers! It's so pretty, we thought a cheap supermarket cactus would be dead by now, especially seeing as we had to pull a weird soggy bit out from next to the main piece but it seems to be doing really well so far. I really want more house plants, plants are magic too.

Saturday, 29 April 2017

Blossoms, Thunder Thighs and Crisps



I had a search through my most recent sketchbooks and marked all the drawings I thought were worth working up into final designs and I've been working my way through, adding them to my redbubble and society6 shops. These are the first few I've got done. There's a lot more for me to work through too, sometimes drawing in my sketchbook doesn't feel like doing work but it ends up being super useful.




I watched this video by ummmheather about how she makes her pins and I'm really keen to give it a go myself. I've tried shrink plastic before ages ago but couldn't find a varnish that worked out and then never bothered trying the inkjet printable stuff but that Dimensional Magic does look pretty magic. I have a few designs kicking about that I think would look really good as a badge so once I've gathered all the supplies together I'll be sitting in front of my oven being amazed by shrink plastic all over again.




Speaking of sitting in front of the oven, it broke last night .。・゚゚・(>_<)・゚゚・。. so now would actually be a great time to buy something from me. The washing machine is making a weird plastic-y burn smell when it's on too so help me have functioning kitchen appliances and feel awesome about your helpful self ٩(。•́‿•̀。)۶

Saturday, 22 April 2017

InstaSnowLineStoryApp #10



I downloaded Snow and had to delete Snapchat hence the slight name change of these posts. Having not much phone memory means making these tough decisions, but that strawberry milk filter was much needed in my life/on my face.







Thursday, 20 April 2017

some sketchbook

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Drawing in my sketchbook always makes me feel better so to counter my last post which was not very happy I thought I'd also upload some recent drawings from my sketchbook. Not long ago I had a massive sort out in my studio and sitting at my desk now is a much nicer time so I've been doing things in my sketchbook that I like a lot more than I was doing before. I always wonder if other people can see any difference or if it's all in my head lol. Either way, I'm having a nice time with it. I think the main difference is that I have all my markers in front of me and I actually sit at my desk rather than just on the sofa so my sketchbook has a lot more colour in it now.

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Jean Claws Van Crab

redbubble / society6

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I'm off to my desk to do some more drawing ^_^

just keep swimming

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I've been plodding along with not a lot happening really. I'm still managing to do veda which I feel proud about. Although I just noticed I have one less subscriber than I did yesterday so that's a good mood boost lol. We had easter sunday off together, Will did me an egg hunt, we watched Moana and The Force Awakens for the second times (´ ∀ ` *) and then Avengers Age of Ultron for the first time (o-_-o) and we ate a lot of roast potatoes. It was really nice to have a day off together, we don't do it enough. Being self employed is dumb (but is also brilliant and keeps us sane, for the most part).

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I'm feeling very unsure of myself lately and am trying to not let it stop me from working seeing as that will just make it worse. It is very hard to be creative when you feel like you're the least creative person ever to try and create something but I know my brain is just being mean and even if I am rubbish I won't get better if I stop trying.

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I've been trying to 'go shopping' more often. For various reasons I prefer to get clothes from second hand or independent places and I guess if you don't look in charity shops often there's much less chance of finding things. Especially seeing as ours never seem to have anything I would want. I always get so jealous when I see people online in their thrift stores or op shops that are huge and full of all sorts of stuff from all sorts of styles and we have tiny little charity shops that seem to only sell the most bland bits of what you could buy on the high street last year.
I always think of charity shops as magical places that sell anything and everything and then in reality they seem to be heavily dictated by the person who runs it deciding 'people won't want that, throw it out'. Which is fine, it's their shop. Maybe it's just the charity shops I can get to, maybe I'm just too picky but whatever the reasons, I often go out thinking "yeah, I'm going to just poke about and hopefully I'll find something, maybe not but it'll still be fun to have a rummage" and once I'm actually out of the house I just get anxious and stressed. I find it hard to be around people and then on top of that I don't find anything I like and I end up feeling very woe is me about it. But it gets me down sometimes wearing clothes I bought 7 years ago that don't really feel like me anymore so I have to keep trying. And we do have Looses Emporium which gives me hope for finding clothes eventually maybe.



It's weird at the minute. I don't feel especially bad but I also don't feel especially good. It's like I've accepted the negative thoughts and feelings and am just like fine, that's how it is, what can I do. Which doesn't feel healthy to be honest. The moral of this post seems to be 'just keep trying' but sometimes it's hard to believe that anything will come out of it. I hate being negative on here but it might help a bit if I get it out and send it away to the internet. Sorry if you've read all of this and I've made you feel down (or annoyed at my whingeyness)! I'm sure things will pick up, gotta just keep trying. haha.